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First Day of Work

2010-07-15T21:04:00.002+08:00

First day of work today at Sakae Sushi.

Well, months of job hunting had finally came to an end. And maybe I've been idle at home for way too long, as feel really exhausted and tired today. But the work involved is quite fun. I did try to make as less mistakes as I could today, but still ended up making quite a few. But overall, I think that I did quite okay for my first day.

I always did like Japanese stuff, so remembering the food and menus names isn't that difficult for me, and the customers at Sakae Sushi are quite a fun lot overall, along with the staff. And to think that I was worried for the past two days that I won't be able to cope with the workload. But it's only the first day, so still too soon to say.

But that one customer today...

WHAT'S HIS PROBLEM?!

He got a bone to pick with me or something, is it?

Gah! Thinking about it only makes me mad! So I won't think about it. But still, customer is always right, so even if I don't like it, still have to force myself to smile even if I feel like ripping his guts out.

Might have to squeeze in as many work hours as I could possibly do this month, as will be starting school next month, and the school hours might be a little irregular then.

Lasalle! Here I Come!

2010-04-12T21:08:00.003+08:00

Yes! I got in! I got in!

I got into Lasalle!

Okay. Okay. I know that it has been quite a while since I've updated, but can you blame me, since I had been busy preparing my portfolio for my Lasalle interview on April 09, 2010, ever since I had failed the first interview?

Hard work really pays off!

I got in!

The interviewers literally gave me a heart attack when they were announcing the results of which among our interview group actually got in. I thought that I've failed again, as I've messed up some parts of my interview.

But the interviewer who also coincidentally happens to be the same person who had interviewed me the first time told me that I did alright, and that the mistakes that I did with this interview isn't too bad.

Phew!

Anyway, I got in! And now, I can stop worrying about whether I can get into Lasalle or not.

August is the start of the school term.

Yay! Lasalle! Here I come!

3D Model Design

2010-03-30T16:24:00.003+08:00

I've finally finished my 3D model designs for my interview at Lasalle on April 09, 2010 for the foundation course that I wanted to get in! It took me three entire days just to finish making all these!

It is tiring, but rewarding in a way as well, when I see my art piece take form bit by bit. Now I have to worry about my painting and sketches. Let's hope that all these will be enough for me to pass the interview at Lasalle.

Interview at Lasalle-SIA

2010-02-27T12:04:00.002+08:00

I feel like I want to cry.

I failed my interview at Lasalle-SIA yesterday. Perhaps it is partly my own fault for not signing up for the portfolio building workshop, as the artworks that I'd presented yesterday at the interview is a little too simple.

And yesterday definitely seems like a entire day of bad luck for me, one after another.

First, I failed my interview. But I signed up for the portfolio building workshop, so no problem. I'll just have to try again at the next interview on April 09, 2010.

And then, when I reached home, my laptop got contaminated by viruses! And not just any virus, but a TROJAN virus! And said virus actually multiplied like don't know what! First, I got one Trojan, then within seconds, it actually multiplied to about fifty!

I got no choice but to reformat my entire computer, and have to ask Benjamin to help upgrade my laptop system to Windows 7.

Well, at least that is one good thing in itself then, since I had wanted to upgrade to Windows 7 for some time now, only that I can't afford the system. And the system is running faster and much more efficiently than any other time that I've remembered.

Let's hope that my interview on April 09, 2010 goes smoothly, and that I will get in. If not, I might have to try at SAE Institute during the October intake.

Avatar

2009-12-20T01:23:00.002+08:00

Today, or should it be yesterday? - I caught the show Avatar with Keng Yow at Golden Village at Tampines Mall. Well, I admit that it's one of the best shows that I've ever seen, though it lasted a freaking three hours, and my butt is hurting from sitting too long by the time that the show ended.

Following that, I went to the mini concert of sorts that Lestari and Denise invited me to. Turns out that it's a concert-cum-sermon at some church in Somerset, and I didn't even know that Somerset had a church.

Well, it's pretty interesting, all things considered. And at least it didn't manage to almost send me to sleep like the last time when Benjamin invited me to his church's concert of sorts a few months ago.

Malaysia Trip

2009-12-14T14:47:00.002+08:00

We went to Malaysia yesterday. And when I say 'we', I meant Keng Yeow, Lijie, Yong Shan and Jetcht along with me, of course. Mostly it is shopping trip, I guess. I mean, what else would we do in Malaysia? And not to forget that we watched a movie in Malaysia's Cathay cinema, 风云 II. It's okay, I guess. Only a little confusing and there are certain parts of the movie where I'd almost fell asleep.

But I've finally found a music CD in Malaysia that I've been searching for some time now! I heard from Lijie that the particular CD is banned in Singapore or something. And not to mention that I've bought several anime DVDs and one PS2 game that is near impossible to find in Singapore.

Looking forward to our next trip to Malaysia on January 31, 2010!

Wet and Wild

2009-12-05T19:23:00.004+08:00

I went to Wild Wild Wet with my mother today. I know what most of you are thinking by this point in time. I'm 21, legally an adult by Singapore law. A little too old to go everywhere with my mother. The thing is, originally, I've invited Yong Shan with me today as I have two complimentary tickets to Wild Wild Wet, but unfortunately, her 'monthly friend' came for a visit, and it is rather unfortunate, but she couldn't make it, and thus, my mother came along instead.

I hadn't gone to Wild Wild Wet ever since it's opening, and I guess that it's pretty fun for a water theme park, but not up to America's standard which I've gone to once a couple of years back or the one that I've gone to in Malaysia many years ago (Sunway Lagoon).

And I have a good mind to sue some girl who literally shrieked her head off when we were riding some ride that have six people to a ride. I think the name of the ride is 'Waterworks' or something. I mean, it isn't even that scary. And she literally shrieked her head off like someone is murdering her. If I have problems with my hearing in the future, I have a good mind to sue her. Oh wait. I don't even know her name. Damn.

Anyway, overall, it's a pretty great day, though I might probably regret it tonight as I'm already feeling quite tired whilst writing this blog entry. And not to mention that my maid is returning today on the 10:00pm flight after her month long holiday. My mother is naturally happy as it meant that she didn't have to juggle between work and housework any longer.

And I think I kind of understand why my aunt was so dead tired just after two hours in Wild Wild Wet with my cousins during my birthday. I'm pretty tired myself too. A sign of old age maybe?

Twilight Saga New Moon

2009-12-01T15:04:00.003+08:00

I guess it's really been some time since I've updated. I can't seem to find it in myself to update any longer for some odd reason. Also, I've been a little tired of purple recently as everywhere I go, I kept seeing purple. Purple clothes. Purple hats. Purple walls in shops. Even purple cars! Alright, fine, I know that this year's theme is probably purple, but this is ridiculous!

Hence the reason why I decided to change my blog skin. Suits my mood a lot more, and it also took me a hell of a time to figure out how to put up the damn music on my blog without having to use sites like Imeem and eSnips.

This blog entry should really have been put up two days ago on November 29, 2009, but I guess I'm not in the correct mood to put it up then. On that day, initially, Keng Yeow and I wanted to watch Ninja Assassin or Fantastic Mr Fox.

The first movie because I think that it's an adaption of the game Ninja Assassin and my friend always went ga-ga over that game of hers for some odd reason. And the second because that used to be one of my favourite books when I was younger. But in the end, we decided to catch Twilight Saga New Moon instead as we've wanted to watch that ever since the promotion poster came out, and it is only by a stroke of luck that the movie came out early in cinemas this year.

The movie is a whole lot better than the first, if I may speak the truth. Maybe because of the change of directors? But Good Lord, what is it with the pale complexion of the vampires in the movie? I mean, I know that vampires are meant to be pale and beautiful and all that, but the paleness of the vampires in the movie is really overdoing it!

But on the other hand, effects of the movie and the acting is really superb. No complaints there, I guess. I never really did like the second book in the Twilight series because Bella is a tad bit whiny there, and in my personal opinion, the movie is a lot better.

My favourite part of the movie is probably the fighting scenes between the guy who plays Edward Cullen and the Volturi vampires in one of the last parts of the movie. And is it just me, but are the wolves in this movie a little too humongous? I know that they're supposed to be larger than normal wolves in the book, but isn't this overdoing it a little?

Overall, the movie is excellent. Much better than the first one, that's for sure. And I'll probably get the DVD once it comes out for collection sake as well. But let's hope that the third movie in the Twilight series won't have such exaggerated details.

2009-04-29T23:22:00.003+08:00

Today is both great...and terrible.

It is great because I finally have some ideas and inspiration for some of my stories at Fanfiction.net and I went to Tampines One with Keng Yow, Lijie, Max (whom I hadn't seen for close to a year already), as well as Connie (Max's girlfriend) again to play the Pump It Up game...again.

It is terrible because I can't seem to find the energy or mood to get 'pumped up' in anything that I did today, which included playing Pump It Up, my favourite game at Tampines One. And it is also terrible because I ended up meeting a 'job interviewer' which turned out likewise.

Can't seem to really get into anything much recently. I don't even feel like going to tomorrow's Japanese language class. But on the other hand, if I don't go, my mother will definitely kill me. I won't be surprised if I sleep through the entire class tomorrow.

I was talking with Max earlier when we happened to be walking in the same direction together since his way home is just past mine, and we happened to be talking about the 3D Computer Animation course that I wanted to take, and about 21st birthday celebrations.

21st birthdays are a rather big deal...to us, that is. I was initially thinking of just having BBQ for mine, but I'm rather tinkering about with the idea of a chalet...if I got the cash by then. My brother even went as far as booking an entire KTV pub for his 21st birthday celebration, and all his friends turned up dressed like their prom night during junior college, and I happened to be 'acting camera-man' that day.

...I think I still got the photos stored somewhere in my computer...

And really being lethargic today to the point that when I played Pump It Up at Normal mode and 2.5x speed, when I can normally get nearly perfect, I missed about half the arrows...including Beethoven Virus and Winter - both of my best songs for that game.

2009-04-28T23:58:00.003+08:00

Not much happening today...like every other day.

Today is Herbalife's company orientation seminar. Basically, they spoke about their products as well as talk about healthcare and about the rate of people getting sick and getting diagnosed as obese or even down with cancer and heart problems even in their twenties, especially with the recent swine flu going around.

Goodbye, chicken flu. Hello, swine flu.

It never ends, it seems like. And it definitely seems like I really have an affinity with MLM companies. First, I got practically dragged by Kun Tai when I was in my Higher NITEC year in ITE Simei to Sunshine Empire (then known as NTI). Following that, when I was looking for a job a few years later, I ended up going to Venture Era. Then, about a year ago, I was once again looking for a job, and ended up getting dragged to Herbalife's orientation seminar which was held at the same place where I ended up going today!

I really seem to have an affinity with MLM companies for a reason that I can't comprehend. And the most ridiculous thing is that I went about with Keng Yeow and Lijie in the streets of Tan Que Lan street of Bugis for who knows how long, and it ended up that the place where I'm supposed to go to is only across the road from Bugis Junction...

Quite ridiculous.

We ended up going to Tampines One again after taking the MRT from Bugis, and playing another round of Pump It Up. I seemed to be quite addicted to this game for some reason. And I hadn't gone to the arcade for close to five years now. Maybe I should try Hard Mode the next time I go there, especially since I seemed to be able to handle Normal easily now.

2009-04-27T23:28:00.003+08:00

Long time never update already! Sorry about that! I've been really busy, and I've been busy remaking and revamping the outlook of all three of my blogs. The economic crisis had really been hitting everyone hard, and I really hope that things will improve soon. Especially since I even have to resort to borrowing money from my father just to pay off my Internet bills!!

But enough about that.

Today, I went to the movies with Lijie, Keng Yow, Lian Swan and Wendy. We initially wanted to watch at Pasir Ris Cathay (am I right?), but since I needed to go to MDIS to enquire about some courses, we made the cinema venue at Dhoby Ghaut instead.

Seriously, I think I seriously freaked out all four of them during the screening since I literally jumped out of my skin several times during the movie that we're watching - Friday the Thirteenth.

Note to self: never ever watch horror or ghost movies unless I'm absolutely sure that I can handle it so that I wouldn't be the one scaring my friends instead of the movie doing the scaring bit! I mean, I hadn't been this freaked out in my entire life ever since I watched the last Saw movie flick back in Sec 4. And I finally understand why the damn film is rated M18. Too many damn sexual scenes for my liking.

What is it with western countries and their liking for sex and romance scenes anyway?!

And we went to Tampines One after that...again. And we also played the dancing game that is suddenly so popular...again. I mean, I couldn't even walk properly the last time I played that game with Lijie straight for a week the last time we went there. Though I can handle normal mode now...finally.

Working (or is it training?) tomorrow, and thankfully, I finally found a job! And let's hope that it's not a job like MLM since Herbalife is a known MLM company, though they dealt in health products instead of electrical products.

...well, both my parents have been complaining that I'm getting fat. Maybe I'll at least be able to better know my health since I've been thinking of going for regular health checkups especially since I seem to fall sick so often during the past few years...

2008-08-16T09:46:00.006+08:00

I'm fed up with everything.

Why can't she just lay off and leave me alone?! Every single day, nag, nag and nag. Just give me a break already! Does she really want to drive me crazy or something?! Even my own brother isn't helping matters. I'm sick and fed up with everything...trying to live up to their expectations. It's like no matter what I do, they'll never be satisfied anyway, so why bother trying?

Since young, it was always my brother this, my brother that. Everyone was always going 'why can't you be like your brother?' all the time. I'm not him, damn it! I wish that they would just disappear! I'm sick and tired of everything and everyone! If only they would just disappear!

Whatever that I said, they never believed me anyway, thinking that I'm sprouting rubbish. Just disappear from my life already and leave me alone! I've had enough!

2008-08-15T14:10:00.015+08:00

I'm back at work today. It's even worse than I thought. I might as well be the wall for all the attention that they paid to me. My only sole concern is the radio that is my sole companion during work hours. Thank kami for the invention of radios!

It is the final game build today before releasing it onto the shelves and yet, I read on some forums that the game will be released as a torrent file even before releasing it onto the shelves! I mean, sure, I do downloading of games myself before, but that was before I started on this job and toiled long hours on it. Ever since then, I've started buying original games since it isn't fair to the people who'd worked so damn hard on the game.

I've got another idea for a fanfiction story today and really...what is it with all the ideas recently? But...I don't think that another person had this idea before since I hadn't read any stories similar to the one that I had an idea for yet.

I had a weird dream last night, though I can't remember what I've been dreaming about... What is it with dreams and forgetting what we've been dreaming about anyway? I've been getting these dreams on and off recently...or maybe it's because that I'm down with the flu or something that I got these dreams.

I've read somewhere that dreams reflect a person's personality and their emotions and maybe whoever said that was right. A new girl came in today - Sarah - I think that she came in on Tuesday when I'm down with the flu. I hadn't really talked to her yet, but she seems relatively nice...I hope.

2008-08-14T13:12:00.012+08:00

No one understands me at all. Not even my own family. I've stayed home again today. Going to work seems like a chore to me now. I might as well be invisible the way that my colleagues at work ignores me and at home, it makes me feel as if I'm not welcomed. I might as well be a stranger in my own house.

It hurts.

I know. I know that my own mother favours my brother. To her, my brother is everything. She never cares about me at all. All she does is yell, yell and yell at me. Even when I was younger, she never bothers to take the time to understand me at all and my own position in school. She was always 'why can't you be like your brother?' all the time. I'm not my own fucking brother, damn it! I am not her puppet, always being at her every whim and call!

I hate them. I just wish that they would disappear! I'm tired of always trying to do things to please them and trying to fulfill all their demands. Why can't they just leave me alone?! It's as if I do not have enough to do - trying to handle all the stress at work and trying to ignore the fact that my colleagues at work thinks that I'm invisible or something. I know that I said to my own brother that I don't mind being alone, but being alone and isolated completely is two different things!

Why can't they understand this or try to understand me for a change?! I am not their plaything or their doll - allowing them to throw around and boss around as they wish! I am tired now. Why can't things be simple? It would be so much easier to get through each day without making me feel as if I'm going through Hell.

It is Hell here and it seems to be Hell over there too. This world...is rotten. Everyone is just trying to use each other to fulfill their own selfish ambitions. My own family is no exception. People only think of themselves, never of others and they're always trying to use people.

I hate it. No one understands me at all. And I won't even bother trying to make my own family try to understand. After all, if they don't even bother trying to spend the time to understand my own situation and me, why should I even bother trying to make them understand? It'll be just a waste of time.

Staying Home

2008-08-13T11:27:00.012+08:00

I've stayed home again today from the flu. But maybe it's for the best as well. I'm really starting to dread work and it seems like the only thing that I can remotely find to escape from all that is by writing or reading - two things that I loved doing most.

Being sick and lying in bed also allows me to do some thinking. I suddenly realise that I don't have a lot of friends that I can call 'real', though I suppose that it's better than worrying if one of your 'friends' will backstab you in the back. With friends like that, who needs enemies?

But even though I said that I don't care to everyone out there that my colleagues isolated me from their affairs and talks, deep down, I know. I know that I yearned to be part of their group and to talk and laugh with everyone else. I know that I'm lonely. But I just don't want to admit it.

I've found some pictures on the net today when I was surfing for anime pics as I'm feeling bored. It really takes me back to my secondary school days when I'm in school with Hong Chuan and the rest. Laughing and talking with everyone else about anything under the sun. Where had those days gone and when had we driven apart so far? Just one more time, I just want to go back to where those golden years had been for us - just laughing and talking without a care in the world.

I'm tired. Really I am.

Sick

2008-08-12T18:32:00.009+08:00

What a day. Of all days to be sick, it had to be today when I have a ton of work piling up for me. The past few months had been hectic.

Stress has really been getting to me and it's making me feel as if I'm not even welcomed anywhere any longer. Not even my own parents or my brother understands me now. And I don't even know if those few friends that I've got still treats me as such. I'm starting to dread going to work as my colleagues barricaded me from their affairs and talks and it makes me feel as if they don't even care if I drop dead in front of them.

I've never really been a sociable person - that's why I've resorted to writing as it's only through writing that I can escape to another world where I can be the person that I really want to be. I feel so choked up that I can't even breathe. I can't take it any longer... Am I really that awful to be with? Or do they think that I'm just plain weird?